Friday, August 2, 2013

Refinishing Meditation

I am struggling with a decision.

Do I continue working a difficult temporary job or quit and devote myself to a technical book I'm writing with David, a novel I need to send out again, one I need to finish,  one I need to get going on, and a non-fiction book I'm editing? The first book has a buyer, the last is by a previously published writer, Geraldine Williams. (The link shows one of three books she wrote or co-wrote.)

I also need to spend some time on my bookstore, Read (Think) Books. It is doing very well, thanks to Kristin, but I want to add more display, tame the two storage units, create a website, and create some advertising.

So I did what I always do when I'm under stress. Refinish furniture.

This time it's painting a very rough old bookcase I plan to take to the store, but earlier this week, it was a Drexel coffee table.
  • I begin by readying my tools, placing my object and putting on the appropriate gloves, clothes, shoes, and protective gear.
  • I examine the piece to see where to begin, or where to pick up after I left off the last time.
  • I pick up sander, brush, rag, saw, screw gun or hammer and begin. 
  • Each step is focused and repetitive. I refine my technique, pull my mind back to the task when it wanders.
  • I think of very little else while I work. 
  • At the end, I tidy away the tools and the object. 
Come to think of it, gardening is also a meditation practice.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Things Done but Left Undone

Opened a bookstore...
but haven't posted the thousands of vintage books I adore.

Deconstructed my bathroom...
didn't put it back together yet. 
Released hundreds of ladybugs to police my garden...
but the garden has fallen into disrepair.
Moved my bookstore to a new location...
still don't have all the fixtures up after 8 months.
Wrote the first 75% of three novels...
but not the last 25.
(This is my plot bunny, Fred. He works overtime.)
Called home my fierce protective nature...
but haven't integrated my tiger.
Built my neighbor a small deck and steps...
never sealed the wood. 
Designed a new store website...
haven't created it.
Refinishing a Drexel coffee table...
 still needs two coats of tung oil.
Consented to a temporary job...
haven't quit the goofy thing.

Started editing a book on art therapy...
haven't done the final polish.

Organized a book on writing...
my friend decided not to write it.

Sent my mystery novel out to an agent...
once. 

 Wrote a comic book and got it half-illustrated...
but not published.


Created a writing blog...
not posted on it for two years.

Studied shamanism for two years...
have yet to journey for anyone but me.
 

My new watchword should be FINISH.